first day of clomid

Today is my first day of my first cycle of Clomid. I hope it works and we're finally able to start the family we've been waiting for. Probably because I was anxious to start, I took the pill in the morning around 10am. I had very little side effects and feel fortunate that none of the SE I read about affected me. In hindsight, I should've taken it tonight so that I could've slept right through any side effects. 15 days ago, I started provera, which induced my period come. Exactly 5 days later, AF showed up. Everywhere around me, girls at my office, girlfriends of my close friends are pregnant. I can feel that i'm more melancholy than normal and I'm extremely lazy. Normally after work, I will cook or do something productive. For the past 5 days, I come home straight from work and get on the computer to research about infertility.

Here's to hoping I get a BFP early september!

awe, i love this photo

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tiff, me, ann and Tina. awee my bestest girls. So cute. good times.

dylan

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awwwe. I love dylan

a year of firsts

First year as a married couple, first year going to the superbowl.

I'm so excited that we're going to Arizona tonight! Superbowl here we come!!!!

In laws.

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It must be hard when you lose a person you've spent 50+ years with. My FIL met my MIL in Germany during the war. It was quite the whirlwind romance they had. MIL was quite the catch back in the day. She seriously resembled Audrey Hepburn. FIL was in the miliary and they met running track. I've heard enough stories from them to know that they faced many battles being the inter racial couple. One year, FIL was recognized for being airman of the year and they were invited to the White house. I think it was 1969 or 1970. They were one of the first interracial couples in the white house, from what I've been told. I'm glad that I got the chance to know my deceased FIL. He passed away April 2, 2007 and it's been a tough year for my Hubby and his mom. FIL didn't get the chance to make it to our wedding, but I know he loved me and he was happy we were getting married. In hindsight, it's sad b/c during the planning process, whenever we tried to involve him by asking for his guest list, he was never really cooperative. He'd just change the subject and now I know that he knew he wouldn't make it to our big day. But I am grateful to have spent 5 years knowing him and hearing his stories. He was the glue in the immediate as well as extended family. I'm most grateful because I'm nosey and ask many questions so I know many stories that I can one day pass on to my future kids about their paternal grandad.

I married an only child...I totally got ripped off.

I used to be the baby of the family until my parents decided to have my kid sister. We have a 14 year age difference between us. It's my brother, 1 year older, me, then her. Anyway, being the middle kid teaches you to share. My brother was bigger, meaner and stronger than me, so I had to use my noodle to get my way. I learned to manipulate. Then when my sister was old enough to talk, I was practically an adult, so playing with her wasn't much fun. I've always been the mother figure to her. She's smart. She comes to me when she needs the essentials, like clothes. Anyway, so I come from a family of 3, a huge extended family chocked full of aunts, uncles, cousins, etc and I marry a guy, who is an only child. Who is also the child of an only child. It doesn't get much lonlier than that. I mean it's great on one hand. I have one mother-in-law to deal with. But on the other hand, we are all she has, so she stays with us for long periods of time.

I think of a time in the future when my parents are older and will need assistence. It's times like this that makes me appreciate having a brother and sister to help shoulder the responsibility. Being an adult really pisses me off. So, for the sake of my future children, I will try to have more than one because God knows what a pain in the ass I will be in 40 years.

charlize

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